I just found out I’m pregnant, and it still doesn’t feel real. We have been praying for children since sometime in 1997, and for almost a year I’ve been taking hormones and having ultrasounds, and continuing to not ovulate.
On August 5, after ten days of pills, followed by ten days of internal ultrasounds every two days, my newest doctor gave me a shot to force ovulation. He informed me that even with the shot I still had less than 20% chance of conception. We had a conversation about “when this doesn’t work we will need to move to more aggressive methods.” We discussed daily shots, and what procedures would and would not be covered by insurance. At the end of that appointment, my husband and I began to pray about whether to continue with the more aggressive measures, or to leave it in the Lord’s hands and begin considering adoption.
On Monday, August 21 I went in for routine blood work to check my hormone levels on the back end of my cycle. The afternoon phone call from the nurse went something like this:
Nurse: “We got the results back from your blood work. (awkward pause) and it seems that you are (apologetic tone) pregnant.”
Me: “I’m sorry, I’m what?”
She said it in the same tone that I would expect to hear “you have syphilis”, and she followed it up by telling me that I needed to come back on Wednesday and on Friday to have my hormone levels checked again. So I thought I was maybe pregnant, or sort of pregnant.
Today, I went for bloodwork, and all of the nursing staff that greeted me beamed “congratulations!” at me. I asked for clarification, and it turns out I’m not sort of pregnant, I’m really pregnant! They’re just checking my hormone levels to make sure I stay that way.
So God doesn’t care about percentages or shots – and we knew that, but he’s just showing us again. He’s reminding us at the moment that he also doesn’t care about small two door cars that don’t have room for a baby-seat. He’ll take care of it all like he took care of something that should have never worked.
a suburban housewife said,
August 23, 2006 at 8:24 pm
Okay, I’m screaming. No, crying. Okay, okay- both!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!
(Yes, I know that all-caps translates into shouting)
Coastal said,
August 24, 2006 at 5:25 pm
Congratulations! I followed a link here from our mutual friend, the Goddess, and thought a note would be fitting as I’m just at the other end of the journey. I’m waiting – any day now – for pregnancy to end and the full fledged parenting adventure to begin. We already upgraded the car and I installed the baby seat yesterday.
I pray that things will continue to go well for you – and know now that the Goddess will be following very closely, even when you don’t hear from her. Blessings!
a suburban housewife said,
August 24, 2006 at 8:27 pm
And so I linked to this post on my blog….