I’m also healthy, and a girl, in case anyone was wondering.
Daily Archives: March 12, 2007
In fact, truth be told, sometimes I feel like I’m perpetrating an enormous fraud on everyone, including myself. I had reached the point several years ago of assuming that I would never have my own biological child. In fact I had said things like, “Well, genetically, Jonathan and I would probably produce almost blind children, so it’s probably a good thing we’re going to have to adopt.” And while it may have been a little bit of whistling in the dark, it was also what I expected.
So no, rather than feeling like I have been pregnant my whole life, I feel grateful for the experience. I feel included in some big club that had been assumed to be out of my reach. I also feel like this pregnancy is fleeting. I’m already halfway through. And because I have waited so long, and I have no guarantees that I will every experience this again, I am trying to savor and enjoy every second of this rare (for me) experience.