So you remember a few weeks ago, right before the mackerdoodle’s birthday, I had a weird virus thing for a day and a half. I felt like I had been hit by a truck and I threw up and I just generally felt disgusting. I felt better for the mackerdoodle’s birthday and subsequent relaxing days at the in-laws rented condo with three pools. If better is defined as “no more body aches and an absence of vomiting.”
Twice a day while were there Jonathan asked me, “Are you okay? You seem really on edge.” Me? On edge? Of course not. It’s just that the world had become suddenly and irrationally stupid. For instance, after coming home I was browning some pork sausage for pasta sauce, and the sausage smelled so horrible cooking it made me angry! Meat for consumption has no business smelling that bad when it is cooking! This should be an enjoyable experience, and instead this ground pig product is smelling so bad I JUST WANT TO THROW THE CAST IRON FRYING PAN OUT THE WINDOW!
Why would he think I was on edge?
After that periodically I would have moments of weirdness: afternoon lightheadedness, a feeling of overwhelming exhaustion around two in the afternoon followed by a burst of energy around supper time, slight nausea in the morning until I ate some breakfast. . .
So after Jonathan’s parents went home I began to think about things and I knew I was feeling off, so one morning I was picking up some things we needed around the house and I thought, “I’ll just get a pregnancy test, to rule that out, and then I’ll really focus on eating well and exercise and getting healthy.”
Are you guessing where this is going?
We didn’t believe the first test. I mean after years of infertility, here we are taking steps to avoid pregnancy during seminary. We’ve always been good at avoiding pregnancy. It’s the other that’s been a challenge. Until now. After the third positive we had to accept what we were seeing. It’s a good thing I did the test that day, because within three days I was full into pregnancy sickness. I’ve had to stop and throw up twice while typing this.
Thing is, Jonathan’s parents were traveling home from visiting us, without cell phones and with no way to reach them. I wasn’t about to blog the news until we could share the news personally! I reached them yesterday and I’m blogging today.
The last two times I went through this I had back-up. I worked with my husband, we were together almost every minute of the day, and he took over a lot of the “Oh I’ve got to puke! I can’t cook this” moments. This time around he’s a little occupied, what with full time school and full time work. This is going to be a completely different experience, and I would really appreciate your prayers as we all go through it.