In my dream about which I posted yesterday, I did not mean to imply that I would rather go through menopause than have my snickerdoodle! In my dream, I already had my three doodles. I meant to illustrate the shift in my thinking from fear of menopause, to preferring menopause over a fifth pregnancy, and fourth live birth.
I fear I may be digging the hole deeper. This is all caused by NaBloPoMo and posting with tired pregnancy brain.